I’ve let myself go

To bed earlier than ever before
To the gym
Only to sit in the parking lot with a coffee
And a sigh

I’ve let myself go

Back to work
Forward into a new reality
Boldly into each day
Even when I’d rather stay
In bed

I’ve let myself go

To the park when it’s raining
To the merry-go-round that’s an hour away
To the brink of insanity
And back again

I’ve let myself go

Gently into this new calling
To therapy
To a dinner date on a weeknight
Shopping for bigger sizes
Ones that won’t cut and constrict

I’ve let myself go

To the dark places without judgment
To the light places with joy
To all the places in between
Allowing others to support me through

I’ve let myself go

Deeper into love
Further into understanding
Closer to knowing
What we’re all doing here, anyway

I’ve let myself go