Sometimes I wonder if I really am a habitual sleepwalker, or if there are actually demons/ghosts who torment me every night, sending me on my midnight marathons. My sleepwalking is very rarely a pleasant experience, normally I’m running from terrifying things I “see” in my bedroom. I’ve always written them off as night terrors, those can feel extremely real, but what if they’re not? What if I really am being woken up and sent running by some ill tempered ghosts?
Last night I ran into Isaac’s room and begged him to come with me, I was shaking in fear. I told him there was something very scary in my closet. Like a good husband, he entertained my claim and followed me into my room where I led him to my closet. I just stood there staring into its darkness, waiting for him to see the horrible creature I was sure was there just a few minutes ago. He said it was very creepy.
Alas, the creature was gone. I crawled back into bed, my back now facing the closet, and went back to sleep after (another) goodnight kiss from my husband.
What is so disturbing about these episodes is how quickly they come on, and how real they seem. I’m jolted awake by a scary face or creature in my dream, but my eyes are open so I feel like I’m actually seeing it in my room. Night after night they happen, and I can rarely do anything to stop them. Something that does really help is doing the hypnosis CD before bed that my mother-in-law made for me. Sometimes it allows me to sleep through the night, but not always.
I don’t watch any shows or movies dealing with ghosts or demons because they are terrifying and make my night terrors worse. The last one I watched was The Exorcism of Emily Rose in 2005 and I’m still having nightmares from it!! It may sound silly, but sometimes I feel like ghosts sense my fear so they think it’s fun to mess with me.
Or maybe I’m just a sleepwalker with an over active imagination who was lucky enough to find a man who comforts her night after night as she runs from the boogeyman in her closet.