The Day Before A Baby

Welcome to your last day of being just a husband and wife. Tomorrow, you will have far more important titles: Mom and Dad.

Tonight is the last night you will go to sleep and stay asleep for more than 3 hours at a time.  After today, deciding to spend an entire Saturday sitting on the couch watching Dexter or Modern Family just won’t be realistic. This is the last day that you can wear a shirt for 30 minutes before it is painted with human throw up, feces, and other bodily fluids. After today, your kitchen floor will remain permanently crumb-filled and you won’t have the energy to clean it. Where a six-pack of beer sat in the fridge will now rest a stockpile of saved breast milk.

After today, your perspective will change. “Liam is coloring on the new sofa with permanent marker? Is he doing it quietly? Then don’t stop him.” Your belongings will no longer be yours, they will be community items. Your car will turn into a mobile dumpster/closet/food pantry/nursery/insane asylum. Your neatly organized tupperware will be strewn across the kitchen floor and your designer pots and pans will turn into percussion instruments. After today you will understand the importance and art of bribery. Your intuition, negotiation, and human lie detection skills will become fine-tuned; your friends will wonder if you have previous military and/or law enforcement training.

After today, you will wonder how you ever lived without your son. Your heart will feel like it is ready to burst every time he hugs you; you will know and understand an unconditional love you never knew to be possible. This is the last day you will wake up thinking about yourself, and what you want to do today. Tomorrow, you will be the most important person in the world (to your son at least). You will be his safety blanket, his cuddle buddy, his provider, and his best friend. After today you will never be bored. You will re-discover a love of Disney movies, coloring books, frozen peas, and chicken nuggets. You will finally have an excuse to keep baby food in the house and occasionally eat the fruity ones when nobody is looking.

Although you have never been a fan of cheerleaders, tomorrow you will become Liam’s biggest one. You will be the person he looks for in the crowd at his first soccer hockey practice and waves to with a huge unabashed grin. You will be the first one he wants to see in the morning and the only one who can properly tuck him in at night. Wherever you are is where his home will be.

The tears that were shed in the first few years of parenthood due to frustration and stress will eventually be outnumbered by happy tears. Happy tears that can only come from watching your child experience life’s most precious moments, and being right there with him every step of the way.

Tomorrow you will be parents. You will get the chance to watch a human life grow from the very beginning; what a blessing. Tomorrow will be the start of one of the greatest adventures of your life.

“Making the decision to have a child is momentous.
It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body.”

For Charlotte and Alex ❤

4 thoughts on “The Day Before A Baby

  1. Reblogged this on The Other Courtney and commented:

    As it is my nephew’s first birthday tomorrow, I wanted to share the letter that I wrote to my sister and brother-in-law last year before he was born! Liam has been such a blessing to our family. Congrats Char and Alex on surviving your first year as parents, and making it look easy!

  2. I teared up reading this Court.. it is so very very true. For every horrible stage there are at least 3 amazing ones. For every annoyance there are at least a dozen joys. I can’t imagine my life without Brian in it and I know that after today, Alex and Char will be that way about Liam.

  3. Courtney,

    This is just wonderful writing — full of emotional details, evocative descriptions, and so very authentic. If you were my student, I’d assign you to write memoir and in discovering the story of your own life entertain and enlighten others. What a gift you have! Let’s develop it, my dear niece. Much love, B
    Read Writing For Your Life by Deena Metzger

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