Deprived

I keep telling myself that day 2 of no caffeine really isn’t that bad. In fact, I barely notice it!  Then I remember that I am a terrible liar. Today’s lunch break I spent sprawled out in the backseat of my car, passed out, drooling on a canvas grocery bag that served as a pillow.…

Missing the Burn

It has been a little over a month since I became pregnant with my hemorrhagic cyst. What a long month it has been! Don’t get me wrong, I’m still so thankful and relieved that it is nothing more serious than a hemorrhagic cyst, but it has still been an everyday challenge. I have spent a month out…

Hanging Up My Warrior Hat

It has been exactly two weeks since I found out about my little bundle of joy, Tamara, aka the hemorrhagic cyst in my abdomen. Overall things have been getting better, but there are still bad days. Days when even sitting down is torture and breathing in feels like a dull blade is being driven into my…

Letting It Out

In the 48 hours since finding out that I have a mass on my ovary, I have been surprisingly calm about it. I have tried to keep the mindset of “we don’t know anything yet, there is nothing to worry about.” This morning I woke up with chest pains, a tight throat, and a heavy…

I Thought We Had an Understanding

This morning’s transition into the real world after 9 days on vacation was not as bad as I thought it was going to be. I generally like routine, so slipping back into my 4:30 am wake up call to hit the gym actually felt kind of nice. What didn’t feel nice was the pound of…

I Think I Like to Run

Ahhhh vacation. This past Saturday Isaac and I loaded up the car and headed to the North Carolina coast to spend a week at Topsail Island. His family has been coming to this beach at least once a year for the past 35-ish years, and I have joined them the for the past 5. By…

Blessed

I had a long talk with my mom this morning that left me feeling energized, refreshed, and optimistic. My immediate family has spent the past year focusing on the positive in life and not letting negativity (both people and circumstances) weigh us down. It’s hard to do. It takes a conscious effort to not let…