To Commit or Not to Commit

This morning I had a good session with Ken. Now that most of my anxiety problems have been hashed out, we are working on my personal and professional growth and development. We talked about how I victimize myself to make situations seem worse, causing me to pity myself and have a bad attitude. I am aware that I do/did this about my allergies and medical issues, but I didn’t see where I was doing it in other aspects of my life until today. Ken had a point that was a sort of an “aha moment” for me:

If you don’t accept what is going on and you know you can’t change what is going on…then where does that leave you? The answer is stressed and angry. The only option is to change the way you view what is happening. Once you change your attitude and point of view, you can figure out the next step (whether you need to change jobs, a relationship, a financial situation, etc). In the mean time, staying pissed off and victimizing yourself only feeds your own hungry ego.

We also talked about commitment. I have no trouble committing to my relationships. Relationships for me are easy. I have the hardest time committing to myself. I want to commit to start a business making cards. I LOVE making cards for family and friends, and people seem to really enjoy them. I want to do this as a hobby AND as a job and the only reason I haven’t is because I am scared. I am scared to fail, and that people won’t want the cards. I know that this is probably the number 1 reason people don’t start their own businesses; they don’t want to fail. If you don’t try, you can’t fail. Well, after some encouragement from family, friends, and Ken, I am going to try. I am going to try and organize a good selection of cards and market them! I am not going to have any boring generic cards, I want people to request personalized cards. I want them to send me photos and I can create things for them! If they don’t want to send me photos, I can use my own photography to work up cards for them.

I don’t want to make the kind of cards that use scrapbooking tools and cutting and folding paper. I don’t enjoy that at all. I take photos and edit them and add words, make them personal, and I REALLY enjoy it. They are simple, but fun. There is something about taking a photo, editing it, making it personal, and physically making the card that brings me joy.

Below is a quote that Ken gave me this morning. I love it and I hope it offers inspiration:

Until one is committed there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back, always ineffectiveness. Concerning all acts of initiative (and creation), there is one elementary truth, the ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issus from the decision, raising in one’s favor all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamt would come his way.

I added some of my favorite examples of cards I have given to loved ones so you can get an idea of what I’m talking about!

Mother's Day Card

Card for my dad on September 11th. The picture is the wall of the fallen on 9/11/01. Dad was in the Pentagon and his life was spared that day.

For one of my best friends, Bridget, and her husband on Valentine's Day!

Charlotte's baby shower invitation

Card for Isaac

Baby Congratulations

Card for my sister when we found out she had to be homeschooled for a year! Thankfully she had a good sense of humor about it!

For Charlotte's birthday

For dad before he left for Iraq and Afghanistan

Josh Perry's Birthday

Mahala Motzny's Wedding

Made into a sign for my aunt's beach house bathroom. (photo by Alex Wright)

OKAY so I went a little nuts. I had a hard time just picking a few though!

5 thoughts on “To Commit or Not to Commit

  1. I LOVE the cards!! So creative! The one you sent me for mothers day was so amazing – I think I forgot to thank you for it, but I loved it! Only too bad Tristan is always in trouble since that’s really his middle name šŸ˜‰ Which sister was homeschooled for a year??

  2. Courtney,

    Thanks for sharing the words of wisdom from Ken. It was an inspiration to me today.

    As for your cards – I consider a card exceptional if it makes me either laugh or cry. Yours did both!!! It is very clear that you have a gift in this field, and you are wise to pursue a gift which is also a passion! I would love to buy your cards!!
    Aunt Mo

  3. Omg! I love this. (I feel like that’s how all of my comments start out…hmmm) But seriously. I had no clue you were into making cards! It makes sense though, because I think you are SO funny! (Although a lot of things I laugh at because I can hear you say them!) I love all of the samples, I was literally L’ingOL at some of them! (Especially the home schooled one–SO FUNNY) I think you should get a website and post the ones you’ve made so far and think of some witty/creative/clever name for it! I will buy some!
    And I know what you mean about fearing failure. That’s how I felt about Columbia. It was SO HARD to get to the point of saying I’ll even “try” it by applying. But, I couldn’t have been physically rejected if I didn’t try, as awful as that sounds.

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